Patch Me Up!

patience :)

2012-02-11T03:25:00.001+08:00

this time
i wanna do this right
that's why i'm STILL waiting...
God's gonna write my love story :)

the deadliest deadline

2012-02-09T15:55:00.001+08:00

i just hope i can make it
im sleeping at the office later
sigh
i really hate corp world :P
but i need the money...badly :(

i hope i make it

2012-02-09T05:06:00.000+08:00

i reported to office...
finally (the one in pioneer)
to try and finish my contractual work
i wasn't able to attend that astronomical conference by reinabelle in ateneo (huhu)
and spend til 1AM at the office to try and finish my work

hopefully i can finish till 80% today
then finish everything by friday
and the salary i'll get
will cover all my debts :)

yay!

anyways...
uhmm...
well it's a secret for now :)

oh and i hope that my sunday talk will turn out right :) God be with me!

2GBTG!

it's finally sinking in

2012-02-08T00:50:00.001+08:00

you know, i'm starting to become desperate... coz i'm penniless.
really.
i'm swimming in debt now with various people. mostly family.
and though i may have an incoming job interview at saturday, i'm finally facing real facepalms now.
sigh...

you know working for God is really addicting. and my life actually became simpler
but i guess i enjoyed it too much i actually forgot that i need money to survive.
anyways, i just hope i get a good job soon AND finish this contractual manual this week.
coz if i do, i'll have enuff for the next job.

oh, today i had a short bonding time with jasmine and hanzel.
that's all :)

2GBTG!

encounter!!! and other stuff

2012-02-06T04:38:00.001+08:00

obviously the encounter was a BLAST! :)
well that's it haha. there's just too much to list about what happened that day hahaha.

there was lots of praise and worship, crying, shouting... even a demonic possession...
crazy huh?
but it was just...INEXPLICABLE :)

anyways, that happened in from feb 2-4 so that's why no posts on those days :)

and TODAY (well yesterday as of this writing) was SOL intro day...
wait before THAT...
it's my brother's birthday! :) hehe

anyways, going back, it's SOL intro day (yeah i repeated it) and i'm very excited on what's gonna happen! (scared too coz it actually feels difficult haha).

i was late actually coz well... i had to prepare our roofdeck for my brother's party later that day and my parents were already badmouthing the church in a way that our church separates US (me and my brother) from them (as a family). so i had to stay and sacrifice SOL :( but by God's grace, i made it to a part hehe.

anways, then youth service came and me and kim got to share our encounter stuff!!! woohooo! (i was on faythe mode coz i had a broken voice due to the tiredness and all from the past 3 days of shouting and singing)

but really, the KO punch today was i broke someone's trust without me actually doing it. someone posed me as a LIAR! :( :( :( sigh it's unbelievable. really. i mean really. i don't even know this SOMEONE. how can that SOMEONE use me for a personal agenda?!?!??!

anyways, i'll just pray for that person...

2GBTG!

PS: oh rough ending huh? haha sorry about that. be happy :)

prelude: zzzzz

2012-02-05T06:36:00.000+08:00

sorry still sleepy from encounter and revisiting church :P

new beerrtthh!!! (faythe voice)

2GBTG!

encounter !!!

2012-02-02T05:46:00.000+08:00

it's the day of the encounter and i'm very happy and excited woohoo!!!

yesternight, i was able to talk with badz and even though it was cut short (because i was late) we were both really happy and we learned more about ourselves :) yay! you've really improved badz! proud of you!

also, i was able to talk with hanz about her family problem. glad it has somehow been resolved and we're praying that her family's relationship with each other will really improve for good :) i am glad to have these free and anything goes conversations with her :) it's liberating for both of us being succumbed in the world haha

jenelie had problems... which bothered me. it seems whatever is bothering her (her past in particular) is always catching up and really distracting her from growing fully and letting God work on her effectively... hmm... i wish we could talk before my encounter...

and joyce too... she had a revelation for me and well, i was shocked and feel sorry for her :( i'll help her out too and see what we can do so she can move on...

i pray that everyone's problems will work out in God's time and will...

anyways... MARIEL, we haven't talked yet (in case you still read my blogs haha)... you have sharing debts with me hahaha

2GBTG!

i hope the leader... nevermind :P

2012-02-01T04:11:00.000+08:00

just finished john maxwell's leadership training today and WOW was it so awesome! :) i didn't win a study bible though :(

i was able to get the volume 1 and 2 sets (incomplete though) for the previous sessions and i'm more than happy to share everything i've learned so far woohooo!!!

then we paid for my EGR at lifegiver Church and well... met lovely and feyte at the office... :P

anyways, upon going back to marikina, played with hannah while having some serious conversations with kuya thon and ate pearl... wooohhhhh... learning a lot more haha

then eventually, back at church, did my devo, ate with the board and...

WAIT

jericho, one of the young ones who went astray, visited church. he was supposed to be part of EGR as per his mentors. we had to wait for kuya bong to finish the board meeting. while doing so, i learned a lot about what happened to this poor guy. oh well, obviously, what he lacks is consistency and resolve. he just keeps on doing the wrong thing over and over even after 3 EGR's. can you imagine? but to tell you, he's a bright kid. he knows exactly what he needs to know and what he needs to do. he's bad at the doing and keep doing part though haha.

anyways, i feel kuya bong won't allow him and registration ended on the 31st already (which is/was today) so... i dunno...
hmmm....

anyways, good day!

2GBTG!

made for greatness

2012-01-31T02:14:00.000+08:00

everyone that believes in God is made for greatness...
yes, everyone. believe it or believe it.

and only today have i actually (for the first time ever) accepted that i can be great if i serve the Lord.

i was fortunate enough to be part of the pastor's meeting today and learned SOOO MUCH :)
i was really blessed apart from a hearty lunch and some health tips from a future pastor-doctor.

after that i joined the EQUIP Leadership Seminar by John Maxwell at the Word of Hope...
really... all i could do was just sit there, listen, understand and receive the great lessons from these great leaders.
wow...
i just don't know. i'm not used to saying i can be a leader or i'm better than i think but i guess, these all happen for a reason...

back at Church, i even joined the SOL team's meeting and i couldn't help myself but pray for kuya bong, kuya thon, alvie and badette for the wonderful things they have been teaching me and i have been teaching them.

whoooaaahh!!!

i just believe God will use all my skills and talents for His glory! :)

2GBTG!

pre-encounter!!! and 6th day of fasting :)

2012-01-29T05:28:00.000+08:00

whew! what can i say???

that leadership conference last friday at CCF really taught me and jason GREAT things! :)
as in WOW! we were so blessed to be part of that event and we are more than excited to share what we learned there! rev. edmund chan was such an inspiring and amazing pastor and mentor! can't wait to apply what we've learned there to improve our cell and Church! :)

then today (well yesterday fine haha) me, zai, kim and neil attended our first pre-encounter at pastor manny's church! wwwooohhoooo!!! really passionate and groundbreaking preparations for your EGR! i can't wait for what God will remove, break, rebuild and give us on our encounter! :) thank you Lord for doing this for us!

and today, i am gonna have breakfast with my HS friend anto, finish my last day of fasting with jenelie, attend morning and afternoon service then celebrate carla mei's (my cousin) birthday! yay! love yah couz!

then tomorrow will be john maxwell's 2-day session (of some leadership thing) also c/o kuya bong!
whew!
non-stop! God is really pushing me this time! Go Go Go!

:)

2GBTG!

more revelations :P

2012-01-26T22:20:00.001+08:00

ah! someone revealed something to me and i'm just happy God used me to take that person out of his/her misery and wake up to God :P

i wasn't able to attend POST-encounter because i haven't even done PRE and EGR yet. i stood firm with my decision to follow the rules and do what's right even though i really want to be part of the leaders already. but i already waited this long to finally re-establish a strong relationship with God what is a few more months to do what's right? :)

well not much... haha but it IS much for me already :)

2GBTG!

3rd day of fasting (part 3)...

2012-01-26T01:46:00.000+08:00

so went on the 3rd day of fasting and well, it was a long session with jenelie because we had to talk about the 2nd day too :)

and i finally found what really is her problem why she can't finish her fasting: herself... i mean I KNOW that's obvious but it's more of because she keeps thinking of other people's problems that she forgot to focus on HER OWN. i reminded her that her fasting is between her and God and that everyone else she'll have to entrust to God in the meantime. that she has to flush out herself and rebuild herself with God on these fasting days. that even if it were her parents, she has to resist them because she is doing this EXACTLY because they're part of her prayers... :P

in any case, i hope she really does it well this time :) i believe in her and so does God...

now what i don't like about this day?
gossip.
grrr...
imagine, we're at church, we're doing fasting and prayer meeting, and i even asked badz for permission to mentor jenelie... i was THAT transparent and YET those people at dulaan even thought of DIRTY things?!!?!?!? i can't believe this!!! ate erma and carlo to be exact (i can't speculate if bhie, ellie and julie also did the same) were teasing and building some gossip!!!!!!! ... unbelievable...

after doing my greatest and most effective spiritual revival yet, now comes the same **** from the people from my own Church :( sigh sigh sigh

but alvie called me up and reminded me of one thing i tell everyone: "God knows your heart". there. she's right. and i realized that what i've been saying is right too. i know exactly what my intentions are and God knows EVERYTHING. i don't need to please everyone. so there. done. hahaha.

anyways, i've also opened another blog for a great writer!!! yay! she wanted to write her stuff too on the web and she wanted to just use my account since she's not online all the time so i offered mine proudly :) yay!

whew...

and thanks again mariel :) hope we can bond more next time :) i am just amazed at how you are as a person :) i'm sad how some people judge you but i know who you are through your blogs so i'm even sadder that they don't know you at all :(

2GBTG!

well it's kinda much now...

2012-01-25T14:59:00.001+08:00

but my dad was confirmed to have an enlarged kidney which is fatal when unattended to ... and my dad is stressed out coz he's afraid of how much the cost will be if he becomes hospitalized and how it will affect us since i don't have work :(

and my aunt got hospitalized already because there's also a problem with her kidneys (possible stones) but they went there today to confirm the results...

yesternight i wasn't able to talk with jenelie but i was able to talk with hanzel..
it's a sensitive thing so i won't say what it's about... and a bunch of other things...
we're praying for a lot of people to wake up before it's too late and to change when they still can...
that includes us and the WHOLE church...

i just hope they become open to changes....

well i'm positive things will work out in the end :)

2GBTG!

Fasting! (again haha)

2012-01-24T00:27:00.001+08:00

yep! i'm fasting again :)

but this time, i'm doing it with my prayer partner jenelie :) and i feel so blessed that a strong and faithful lady like her is my buddy.

we are certainly learning a lot from each other (but the prob is, we're both tearjerkies! haha).
and me and badette also talked for a bit and we learned from each other too :) WHEW! :)

i'll be joining jason later for dawn watch at feyte's church in QC and i'll have an interview with ate she at human nature :) good luck to me! :) haha

oh btw, last sunday, was a really great day too! bonding time with my tita and cousins happened! :) yay!
we had a great time talking and catching up with each other. thank you Lord for making this happen! one of my goals was already fulfilled! :)

and mark (formerly kelly) came over for our youth service! woohoo! thanks! :) what's more, he's joining our cell group! c'mon!!!

and i saw joydie again but only for a short while :( they went out again with her 3 closest: avis and len.

and (that's a lot of ands there haha) me, my brother, alvie and badette bonded at mcdo but the coolest part? BADETTE initiated it! :) she's really improving! :) so we made sure we wouldn't pass it up :D and we so had a great and blessed time :)

whew! c'mon!!!

whew... the poet is back :P

2012-01-22T01:25:00.000+08:00

if you haven't noticed yet, i've opened a 3rd blog: Filipinize Me!
it's a literary blog (i originally planned it to be purely poetic but... well who knows?) using only the Filipino language :) it's challenging as I haven't done it in a long time and i have yet to learn more Filipino words :P

take time to read it :)

hmm what's been happening?

well i'm getting an interview this coming tuesday (for human nature) as prolly a tech assistant (hehe)...
kuya bong has set me up for Pre, EGR and Post-Encounter and... well prolly SOL as well (WHEW... i dunno if i can do it though ahaha)...
had more bonding time with my brother (over the phone and personal) and we've been learning from each other more :) ...
bonding time with badz this Sunday (that's today btw haha)...
jogging and badminton with wil, alvie, neil and ryan today too haha...
jovie and i inspired each other to write again (in Filipino) hence the Filipino blog :) GO JOVIE!
finally bonded with jenelie, rose, karel, jez, bhie, zai, carlo, janine, and all the great and fun youth members of our Church...
blessing of finances from badz (THANKS AGAIN!) and we learned from this too :)...
bonding time with hanz :) awww... i'm praying for you!
bonding time with cyndi and jess...

hmm...

what's next continues!
and well... a bunch more haha :P

2GBTG!

nothin much :)

2012-01-20T02:11:00.000+08:00

actually really, nothin much happened today
just a few nice conversations with some people :)

i just got inspired by jovie to write again in Filipino sooo...
i just made another blog... in Filipino :) it will be MOSTLY in literary format :) poems to be more specific :)

anyways that's all haha

sherlock holmes 2

2012-01-19T01:56:00.001+08:00

well simply put, i watched sherlock holmes 2: game of shadows today and it was really good :) (well the accent was kinda making the movie hard to understand but it was tolerable hehe)...

but the real highlight is the chance to minister God's words with myk, the HS friend of mine who treated me :) and along with his Christian girlfriend, i can already see it working :) yay!

anyways... i still don't have a job and some blessing from heaven gave me 100php worth of load :P whoever you are... well... thank you :)

i already miss my ... well everyone :(

anyways that's all! ta-tah!

goodbyes and some sighs...

2012-01-18T04:26:00.000+08:00

hmmm. what did happen today (or yesterday to be more precise)?

well i bonded with one of my HS friends jan who is a seaman. we went to gateway and SM marikina and just wandered around like lost sheep haha. we just talked and updated each other with what's been going on with our lives. we also met for a bit delio who helped jan choose a good dining table set (which jan bought for his 3M house... i envy him haha).

then by dinner, we went to hermie's house. hermie is another HS friend who has been living in gensan ever since he got married back in 2010. it was actually tito ben's 59th bday (Hermie's dad) hence the occasion. the funner thing about this was we were as complete as ever when almost all members of our circle of friends came: russ, anto, myk, carmelo (whom we last saw 2007 or 2008 i think) and we were only missing 2: macky and selis. it's ok actually as we've not seen carmelo for a very long time since he got married too and of course jan who rarely goes home.

anyways, long story short we had lots of fun. longest day yet for the year bonding with them. with lots of videoke hahaha. and most often than not, the topics were senseless haha. we all got home early morn.

it's herm's last day in manila today. i pray for his safe travel along with his family. he might go back around april for his son emir's bday.

jan's last day is by end of january, tentatively.

well... i'm gonna miss these guys.

btw... you know, i only have 180php money left and that includes the 80php in my savings account. yes. that's all the money i have left. but you know, i wasn't really worried for some weird reason. i just think God will pull me through. when i did my devotion, i was strengthened more as the reading says Mt 4:4 that Man cannot live on bread alone but also from whatever comes from the Mouth of God. i knew that my dependency on money can only sustain me so far while His Word and love can sustain me for life.

PS: i just read your blog mariel. you just made me cry you know.... anyways we'll talk :P

2GBTG! :)

whatta day! :P

2012-01-17T02:20:00.000+08:00

it was an overflow of gratitude from different people... i don't deserve any of them but only God does. but i'm still thankful nonetheless because God made me an instrument to make a change in these people's lives :) even badette thanked me today. really inspiring.

went bonding with cyndi which was kinda ... short because we spent so much time chatting at the resto haha.

i haven't done my devo yet and i'm still awake. i still haven't prayed for all the prayer requests but can you imagine, 24 prayer requests already answered in just 2 weeks :) woohoo!!!

oh and i also passed by my old office at pioneer and the people were still the same (sad). but i do miss them especially my QA team... anyways i'll be back there later.

uhm... what else... super long chat with a cousin of mine Pam via FB. started with a guy and ended up about psychics... go figure :P and i'm gonna start food blogging again woohoo!! and i'm hopeful for that new job i might get at Katipunan. teaching!!! i'm excited :P hmm what else?

well. i want to learn guitar soon and i miss photography a lot. i really want to get to know HER more and well ... anyways. i wanna be part of the Music team soon too and really do A LOT of changes for the Church. time to set things right :) ... hmm for now that'll do :D

2GBTG!

2012-01-16T03:33:00.000+08:00

this has to be one of the BEST days of my life :)
thank you Lord for everything!

1) cute bonding with Wilrissa Lloren and Neil Michael Astronomo
2) answered prayers for Jenelie Asuncion and Joanne Jadia
3) super bonding with Carlo Magno Perfecto and Jason Maquimot 4) bitin bonding and singing with Joy Dean
5) blazing youth service with Jgen Mfbc
6) happy simple bday with Jezreel R. Balignasay
7) whapak music ministry with Karel Perfecto, Jenelie, Bhie, Paolo, Janine, Jez and Carlo
8) heart to heart talk with Karen
9) hugs and action dance with Zyrene
10) inisan moments with Mariel
11) luffet readings with Kuya Bong
12) jamming sessions with Yo, Karel, Bhie, Shikira, Zyrene, Rose, Karen, and Paolo
13) street praise and worship with Rose, Karen, Shikira and Jovie
14) dishwashing galore with Angelo

whew! :)

the confused confusion

2012-01-15T06:19:00.001+08:00

it's been so many hours of being awake and i still have enough for one more day. endless typing of words in my head prints on screen. then prints on paper. some stays online. listening to a song that says "enough". i think and i feel if everything will work out. ideas, thoughts, questions flood my being. i just can't stop. i keep waiting yet i keep running. i keep reading yet i keep forgetting. but there is a confusion that begs for an answer of the same property.

i pause...

the convoluted words makes sense on their own. and i'm satisfied not being satisfied at all. because in this, i keep yearning, i keep trying, i keep going. seconds, minutes, hours, days, weeks, months and years pass. i start over and i still find you...

hmm... now...

2012-01-15T04:26:00.001+08:00

actually i really wanted to post about what happened today...
but... well...
how do i do this?
what the heck:
1) finished 12 days of fasting
2) joined dawn watch
3) fixed kuya bong's PC
4) found joydie's mum (who never went missing btw)
5) got an offer from Loyola Learning Library (well just a possibility)
6) got turned down by my parents to help monica (really brought me to tears... sorry)
7) just finished watching 3 Idiots
8) bonding time with avis at starbucks
9) bonding time with my brother, ryan and unico
10) plans plans plans
11) gave out my Christmas gifts to jeng and karen
12) finished jez's Christmas gift
13) will try to finish mariel's
14) what's next with kuya bong and others
15) and a lot of whatevers haha

there. done. :)
Godbless!!!

2012-01-14T03:41:00.000+08:00

okay okay okay
time to be original...

TITLE: timing
AUTHOR: Patch Astronomo

there was a time in my life
that was only pain and strife
everywhere i looked it was just pitch dark

i pause and i find
there's something i left behind
as important as Noah's ark

took years and years
for me to return in tears
and discover it's more than a spark

now I've found God again
bound to stay with no refrain
held fast with a significant mark

there is a time in my life
that i prolly want a wife
perfectly finding Him again was exactly when i met you...

wow.. i haven't done poetry in a LOOONNGGG time...

and look at it... it sucks. i guess it STILL sucks is the better adjective for it (along with STILL as the adverb of course... or a figurative adverb that is... anywaysss....)

the changes the changes!

2012-01-11T22:38:00.001+08:00

i just noticed, not a lot of people are reading my blogs now... (well the food one is still dead but after this week, i hope i can get it back up immediately)
well before i would've said: that's good...
but now that my life has made a right turn to God, it seems... well...
anyways...

i guess i'm too explicit about Him. but how can i not be when He's so explicit in my life? :)

anyways... just finished prayer meeting again for today and they sang the 2nd song that made me cry in nation transformers: we cry out (the 1st one was during youth service last sunday which was ... hmm ... i forgot the title haha). it was another great time for prayer and fasting!
woohoo!!

and back at facebook i can clearly see how God is working through my brother in SOOO MANY GREAT ways! c'mon!!! he's already transforming people in his office and praying everywhere you see!!! i'm really happy for him! :)

anyways, gotta sleep... got lots to do tomorrow!
see yah and Godbless!!!

just sharing: Fasting Days 4-7...

2012-01-10T14:45:00.004+08:00

i forgot to post these here haha:

Day 4: Covenant Heirs
-you know the Good News, you know Christ, you know how to keep that fire burning...now it's time you recognize His blessings and the great many things He has in store you. It's all about the great promises and the simple things you need to do to inherit them. Find out what his what His covenant means to you on this day.

Day 5: Free to Love
-in our world today, as it has been for a long time, people have been doing a host of many things that put them at war with each other. or in just our simple society, to hate each other. and despite the so many laws and rules abound to prevent these from happening, they still do. Find out what the one law that God made that will be the only solution to this and the only way to live life to the fullest.

Day 6: Keep in Step
-there's just so many things that you can't change, eventhough you want to. there are things you accept and reject. there are things that you can never predict or control. but there are things that if we let them control us, we are doomed. there is however, one thing that if we let it control us, it will steer out lives into the right path. Find out what this is and the gifts that we can use to make life better for all of us.

Day 7: Keep Doing Good
-you know the Good News and who's the source of it, you know how to keep the fire, you know the rewards in store for you, you know what's the great law that He imparted and what the Holy Spirit and His gifts can do to help you do what you can...
it's been 7 days of offering everything to know Him more, to believe in His salvation and to live by it. you can't stop there. you can't give up on just 7 days of trials. you've got a lifetime of God's ministry to fulfill. Find out how all that you've done so far will bring a great change in everything going forward :)

on Fasting Day 7 and etc...

2012-01-10T14:20:00.001+08:00

anyways the segment post is unnecessary as we got our problem resolved: avis shared to me what she thought the prob was and it was entirely different from the real one. :) bottom line is, we're okay and she's gonna see what she can do about it... thank God :)

hmm....
on my last day, it was really the culmination of it all... i was the most energetic at that day and when i attended youth service, i even sang and shouted to my heart's full power! :) you really feel the Holy Spirit running through you... it brings shivers to my hair and spine when it works :)

oh prior to that though, that morning, i went to my Cavite church family... it was their 101st anniversary. it was far as it was in Cavite and i saw how grand their church is. my heart smiled when maila was the one who greeted me... i missed them SOOOO MUUUCCCHHH... :'( they'll prolly never read this but... well i attended their morning service and it's only that day i realized, they're actually methodists i think... of course that's kinda fine but it was kinda different for me really... so i just prayed to God and praised him... then i saw roxanne and grace cuevas... then saw carmen (the one who gave me instructions on how to go there) and faith (...). also saw katelyn, mark, bon, gian, lulay, nini, and carlene (my other close friend besides carmen). i was already excited to bond with them later and everything... but because of my ear infection, i could barely listen and act properly in the service. it hurted so bad... :( sigh... when the clock hit 10:40 AM, i really had to go. my parents were actually against my going there so ... i had no choice... carlene was sweet enuff to accompany me out and i greeted carmen (who's on the other side) and faith (who up to this day, has NEVER talked to me like before...). i also greeted maila again (who's so thin now) and met eliza (the always kind and warm-hearted person that i've always known) awww... i miss them so much...

while i was going home, i was crying. really. you wanna know why?

these people from Cavite have been one of those people who changed my life. like my home church. they contributed on reviving my faith and seeing how God works on everyone. it started with faith, my former officemate. i just went with her one time to her church in Cavite and i met these big group of kids and of course her co-yuppies. then i went to some other events and the most memorable was the youth camp :) suppperrr great blessing of fire and everything :) and my first EVER song composed was born out of this :) amazing! :) (it has the music sheet and all with lyrics of course but up to now, we haven't put it live because i haven't recorded my voice yet...so yes, i'm still in debt to them haha). but as time passed by, i lost time and money to go to their place. then faith distanced herself from me too. until... they vanished from my comms. the only people left who talks to me are the kids, and to think they weren't really close to me back then and it was faith's group of friends who were. a whole year passed and it stayed that way. that's why i soo missed them... really. and now that i had a chance, i couldn't do anything... i really cried.

anyways, to top my last day (actually not last yet hehe), i was there when zai returned to church :) woohoo!! and we had so much sharing and fun in church :) (aww mariel you missed zai). and i asked for all the prayer requests i can get... woohoo! and when time struck 12MN, i prepared some kinda feast...but you know what, i still stopped before eating coz i really wanted to pray first for ALL the prayer requests before eating. so the food waited for 30mins more, i prayed to God all their requests and i was even happier when i ate coz i still put God first :) really amazing how this fasting transformed me!

and like i said, not yet last day as i will join Church on their fasting this week!!! one meal a day or whatever that really distracts me or controls me :) woohoo! im so fired up for you Lord! :)

and mariel's back! i miss you mariel! :)

alright! round 2, fight for God!

Godbless!!!

wait...

2012-01-09T09:23:00.001+08:00

i said i'd do a segment post... well i fell asleep haha sorry!

it was my last day of fasting and i kinda got swept in. :P

i'll do a make-up post either later tonight or tomorrow :)

Godbless!!!

on Fasting Day 6...

2012-01-08T06:15:00.001+08:00

woohoo!! starting your day with God definitely powers me up! :)

our "What's Next?" session with Kuya Bong was just badabing-badaboom :P anyways, just chock-full of revelations and straight-forward messages to our lives and we need to change. knowing God and accepting His gift of Salvation is what will drive your life into gear :)

then i went to Church... too early though as it was just 10:30 AM... i thought joydie's gonna teach mark around morning or lunch... then she said it'll be around 5PM... oh well haha

still had fun though... sleeping that is :P and i finished my fasting for today early :)

until around 2PM did the people start arriving... alvie, kuya bong, ate pearl and few other ones... they had their usual cells then eventually pastor gil and etc...

had fun with jeng, janine, jovi, jez (all J gurls haha) and jason (haha another J), bhie among others. i loved janine's shirt the most this day (yeah, out of nowhere topic haha) because it was filled with smileys then jeng's second with a black shirt filled with stars then jovi's last as it looked like a really fresh and simple red/white striped shirt :) looks great on her with matching red headband (no, it's not what you think LOL), just appreciating haha

anyways... eventually, joydie came with her guitar!!! :) yay! and i was there for a bit when she taught bhie some keyboard lessons. she's a music monster if you ask me haha :) she knows guitar, keybs, vocals...
wish i could too!!!

anyways then we tried "terrified" on keys... it was nice :) and she thought my voice was too high for the male part so we switched ranges on the song and it came out nice :)

anyways, then i had more bonding with the others (problems, prayer requests, singing, fun)

then joydie came down and we had another acoustic session!!! woohoo! i sooo miss this friend of mine! :) we had a GRAND time with music! but they had to go early because of her and avis' bonding... but i told the latter about my problem yesterday (about the girl...) and she said she'd come back so i waited...

while waiting, i just continued to bond with everyone (suppper amazing, i've never done this before!) and i remember telling alvie that i just wanna go out and greet everyone and ask them how are they and what their concerns are... WOOHOO! im so fired up!

then i went up to join PAW practice with jeng and we had a GRAAAANNDD time i tell you :)

i told her that i want a PASSIONATE PAW for God so i said I'll make it so when i'm in :)
we sang at the audience with full power along with the actual PAW group and we noticed that they really lacked passion for it... awwww... i kept telling jeng that we need to have more energy for God, that we're not just singing, we're PRAISING and WORSHIPPING Him! :) so she shared it with me and we sang to our hearts out! hehe i hope the band didn't hear us though haha...

anyways i'm excited to join PAW and answered prayer as audition will be NEXT SUNDAY! woohoo!!!

eventually we went home and i kept texting avis... and as usual, no reply... i really hate it when she does that... sigh...

so i waited more, went to the flea market with jason and others until i decided to go home.

i was so tired i slept a few minutes after hitting bed... then avis texted when it was late already... sheesh... and then she said she knows something about it... WHAT??? then even asks me why the others know WWWHHAATTT???? this is ridiculous... she didn't change a bit.... (i'll just add a segment post later)

oh well...
anyways i'm off to cavite! :) for the Aniban Church anniv!!!
woohoo!!
Godbless!

on Fasting Day 5...

2012-01-07T01:33:00.000+08:00

it's cell group day! :) a day i ALWAYS look forward to :)
but... i'm kinda sad today coz well..
my ear's infection got worse and i was really deaf at my left ear already
so we had no choice but to go to the doctor and have it checked
the ent doc (thank you doc jong) got the bad stuff removed but i had to take antibiotics for maintenance...
which meant that i had to eat everytime i took the meds :(

if you haven't figured out yet, that ruins my 5-7th days of fasting of pure water/liquid... sigh...

but well, i had to take care of my body so i really had no choice... sorry Lord :(

but jason said a very wonderful thing: "God knows your heart" which he said when i felt sad. he means that God knows what you really mean with your heart so the fasting wasn't a waste and He understands :) (thanks jason!)

and as usual, the cell group sharing and reading was AMAZING!!!

stories and sharings and the Word was all over the place even though there were only (relatively) few of us: jason, alvie, hanzel, ate baby, kuya bong and ate pearl. the readings that pastor bong shared was about reaching God's goals for us. he illustrated this vividly via Paul's unfaltering faith in God in Corinthians and Ephesians. what a great disciple he was! :)

and we went on on how to simplify our plans in life and follow only His lead. to magnify Him always :)

suuupeeerrr!!! and my brother, although wasn't there, sent me via text his 2012 impossible goal list and his prayer requests! amazing bro! proud of you!
(and kelly has just been transformed into a straight guy! answered prayer! woohoo!)

and the end, before we went home, i shared with them the story of my friend that was lashing out at the world last Thursday. we just prayed for her :(

oh well excited for later as it's our "What Happens Next?" session with Pastor Bong :) along with my brother and unico :)

great day! :)

on Day 4 of Fasting...

2012-01-06T01:14:00.000+08:00

hmm...
it's always a wonderful day and i thank God for letting me survive 4 days of liquid fasting
i get to know Him more and more
and His people more and more too :)
i am sooo blessed to be around such cool, funny yet Godly people :)
and that's on and off the Internet (since I'm on it for long periods of time lately)..
and i was also able to attend the prayer meeting at Church
where FINALLY i got to talk to jeng, karen and rose about their problems (and of course, eventually, to pray for them)

pastor gil talked about benediction and what it's meaning is...
the Bible actually says that the leadership of ministry (in Catholic, the priest... in Protestant, pastors) is not reliant solely on one special person. it can be any one of us. we are all called to that task actually :)

benediction, simply put is being blessed or favored by God (like so many prominent people in the Bible were) so we can all have our chance to be under such blessing and to pass on His Word in the same manner :)

anyways, it was great session :) lots to learn :)

i prayed for jason and karel's concerns too...

but the shocking part of this day happened midday to afternoon...
i won't put names on this JUST IN CASE they read this because my personal blog is now open...

there's this friend of mine that i gave a Christmas letter (obviously last Christmas) wherein, in a gist, i wanted her to know that i'm a willing friend and that even though we've known each other for 5yrs, it was only by name. i just wanted her to try and open up herself to me coz i always have an ear to listen. that's what mostly the letter was about since, like i said, i don't know much about her...

now another friend of mine, common to both, suddenly asked why she can't find the former's fb account. when i found out that she deactivated, i SMS'd her. and ... well ... i got 4 not-so-good texts. they were practically lashing out texts. like she was mad at the world or something. and she mentioned about not forcing her to open up because she's not like that. and that she doesn't want to see ANY OF US anymore especially at where she works... i was so surprised for all i wanted to know was if she was ok (which she said she wasn't) and if there's anything i can help her with... no forcing of course...

this actually brought me to tears as ... i felt like i was a puppy just trying to help a disabled woman cross the street and instead of being happy, she hit me furiously with a cane until i bled and went away. :(

sigh... well... the latter friend was available to talk about it and she was shocked too... i travelled far to meet her though haha. but it was still a blessing as i prayed for her concerns as well :) another milestone for God :)

anyways... whatever your problem is, just pull from God okay?

till next time!

Just Sharing: Fasting Days 1-3

2012-01-05T04:00:00.002+08:00

(oh and for those wondering, i'm following Victory's Fasting devotion: Victory 2012: Seven Days of Fasting)
and i won't do spoilers really, just some ideas on what you'll encounter on the way there :)
in the end, God has a special message for each and every one of us :)

Day 1: Good News
-well, it didn't really feel good news to me when i started. you see, it's been a very long time since my last fast. and it WAS fast... if you know what i mean. i lacked purpose back then. i thought you just have to go on a crash diet or something for a period of time and voila, that's it. a sacrifice. woohoo. boohoo is more like it for back then now that i have a deeper understanding of what fasting really is. all throughout the fast, you'll be literally and figuratively stuck with your Bible. all your gonna read is His word. and at this day, you appreciate those Words. You'll find out why the Bible is all about the Good News. :)

Day 2: Christ in Me
-mostly in our lives, we work. we play. we live our lives. that's it. not really paying attention to the real things that should be happening in our lives. we forget that it was never about us. it was really about how He can work in us as part of His grand plan. you've realized the beauty of His word. the great stuff it contains. Now, on this day, you find out how He can live in you and what He has done and can do in our lives.

Day 3: Continuing Faith
-one thing i am praying for is consistency. this may be what most of us are lacking too. and consistency in good and Godly things is always a good thing. it's useless if you start a fire and let it die in minutes. God wants that fire burning. Find out on the this day.

On Fasting Day 2...

2012-01-03T23:05:00.000+08:00

actually on day 2 of my fasting, i had a chance to bond with a very good friend of mine: Alvie.

i just made it a point that i don't want to lose contact with friends that i need to catch up on so i had to follow-up from last time.

and as before, it was amazing :)

we had long walks from UP Ayala Technohub then inside the UP premises until UPIT all the while sharing and talking about God and lessons we've learned in our past. very interesting and a very learning experience. it just shows more why i respect this wonderful lady and why God works so well on her. :) i am truly blessed that i have her as a friend in Christ :)

i went on with my fasting devotion nearby while she had classes.

then we met again and she shared some great news about how she is developing herself into a better person... a person who is new in emotions but is willing to go through the test with God. wow. again, another learning and revealing activity. and how me and my brother are a part of it. :) how heart-warming :)

after that talk, we suddenly felt more excited at how God is at work in our lives and what more is in-store for us :)

till next time!

Fasting!!! 101

2012-01-02T03:33:00.000+08:00

i have to say... fasting for 3 days? not so bad (i've done this a couple of times)

fasting for 5 days? challenging

fasting for 7 days? difficult

fasting for 7 days by a guy who absolutely loves to eat and has a never-ending appetite? ...

so as you can see, it is definitely not easy (if it's not obvious yet, i'm at the 4th one)
but if you have the right mindset and your goal is for a great purpose, this is nothing :)
especially if God is who you're with...

SO WHY FAST?

well as difficult as it may already sound and somewhat, unnecessarily depriving yourself of your normal physical necessities, there is a much more sensible meaning to fasting...

have you ever imagined yourself, in a middle of a desert, slowly losing water and food from your body and just trying to survive without really knowing if there's anything out there? isn't it that the more you near the brink of death, the more you call out for anyone or God, asking for help, asking for a miracle? they even say that you recall your whole life in a flash before you die.

fasting is similar. you see, the more we deprive ourselves of earthly or physical needs, the more we cling on to God. the more we get attuned to His voice, His words. the more we hear only Him. and this is when His message is the clearest.

when Jesus fasted for 40 days and nights, the Devil just couldn't succeed. imagine He fasted waaay longer than we do but He never weakened at all. It was because He only heeded God's words. He only heard His words. He knew that He had to prepare Himself for a great task ahead that He wanted a perfect hearing of His plans.

that should be our mind and heartset when fasting :)

now, since you're at a state that it's just you and God, communication becomes obviously clearer. when your heart is already aligned with God's heart, praying for the things that matter to you most for the rest of the year will be a lot easier to say.

BUT BEFORE ANYTHING...

of course you need to prepare! even though it serves a great purpose, going into something this BIG requires great preparation too :)

1) Prepare spiritually - make a list of prayer goals you want for this year. don't just make a random list, take some quiet time and ask the Holy Spirit to guide you on what you should be asking for the year. Never break your faith in Him that He will answer these after fasting. Always be open to anything that God will reveal or talk to you about. And be patient all the time :)

2) Prepare physically - of course, you're suddenly gonna break a normal routine and necessity of your body so make sure that prior to your fasting, ideally 7 days that is, adjust your eating habits. Don't eat a lot and less sweets. Lessen your food intake slowly and at least 3 days before fast week, you should just be taking fruits and veggies. Consult your doctor as necessary ESPECIALLY if you have a medical condition. This is fasting, not suicide :)

3) Prepare your fasting plan - the ideal way to fast is just pure water or liquids for all 7 days. But you may take a hybrid fast of some days liquid then some days with only one meal. Again, check with your doctor if needed.

DURING THE FAST...

while fasting, you will still encounter distractions, you'll get into mood swings and whatnot. so remember these when you're in it...

1) Think, feel and hear God all the time. Don't let anything else invade your being. Just focus on Him.

2) Be patient and be receptive. You may not always agree with what God maybe saying to you but believe me, He knows what's best for us. Don't rush the message or you may not get what He really means.

3) Lessen your physical and mental activities. You'll only rely on limited resources so make sure you use them all up for God alone.

well i hope this one helps you out :)

oh and a reading for you on why and how we should fast:
4 Behold, ye fast for strife and debate, and to smite with the fist of wickedness: ye shall not fast as [ye do this] day, to make your voice to be heard on high.
5 Is it such a fast that I have chosen? a day for a man to afflict his soul? [is it] to bow down his head as a bulrush, and to spread sackcloth and ashes [under him]? wilt thou call this a fast, and an acceptable day to the LORD?
6 [Is] not this the fast that I have chosen? to loose the bands of wickedness, to undo the heavy burdens, and to let the oppressed go free, and that ye break every yoke?
7 [Is it] not to deal thy bread to the hungry, and that thou bring the poor that are cast out to thy house? when thou seest the naked, that thou cover him; and that thou hide not thyself from thine own flesh?
(Is 58: 4-7) [KJV]
--we don't fast for our selfish desires, we fast because of the greater purpose it serves. a purpose that serves everyone: yourself, your family, your Church and mankind.

and just an example of how powerful it's effect is:
5 So the people of Nineveh believed God, and proclaimed a fast, and put on sackcloth, from the greatest of them even to the least of them.
6 For word came unto the king of Nineveh, and he arose from his throne, and he laid his robe from him, and covered [him] with sackcloth, and sat in ashes.
7 And he caused [it] to be proclaimed and published through Nineveh by the decree of the king and his nobles, saying, Let neither man nor beast, herd nor flock, taste any thing: let them not feed, nor drink water:
8 But let man and beast be covered with sackcloth, and cry mightily unto God: yea, let them turn every one from his evil way, and from the violence that [is] in their hands.
9 Who can tell [if] God will turn and repent, and turn away from his fierce anger, that we perish not?
10 And God saw their works, that they turned from their evil way; and God repented of the evil, that he had said that he would do unto them; and he did [it] not.
(Jon 3: 5-10) [KJV]
--as the fast is of great difficulty, so is its' reward :)

next i'll be sharing my experiences while fasting :)

The Great 2011 and the Greater 2012

2012-01-01T23:00:00.005+08:00

finally a reboot :) again! haha

this time, i really pray i can be more vigilant now in writing about my life here

in a more, Godly, mature way :)

i may still be emotional but i will make sure i will be rational and calm when i can

so without further ado...

here we go:

2011 was a definitely a great year. but as i always say, it's ALWAYS a great year. how IT IS great is the only thing that changes :) you see God can only do great things for us. the mere fact that we have LIVES right now is already more than enough reason to say that it is. but i'll try to itemize my 2011...

i actually lost 2 jobs in this year. coming from treefrog as a proj mgr then my most recent, just last november, as a QA lead. of course, it's a sad thing and really, who can live without a job nowadays. but that's the amazing thing. this happened to me before and it's happened to me again for 2 more times! :) supposedly when you lose your job, you lose work. but in my case, i never do coz that's when God comes in and gives me more work! work that's even more meaningful, fulfilling and enjoyable: Church work. whenever i lose earthly work, i realize how much i lose time for God, family, and friends. such a wake-upper. but this time around, the work is really just amazing and fun!

went into more, unexpected bonding times with the cellmates i know the least: alvie, jason and badette. more bonding with my other cellmates: avis, hanzel, and ryan. bonding with a lot of new/old people due to the caroling: mariel, jenelie, karen, teejay, bhie, roseann, joyann, joyce, karel, adu, aj, yonard, jez, paolo, angelo, carlo, shikira, janine and (not a kid) ate maila (i hope i didn't miss anybody. grabe such wonderful experiences! my family just got bigger!

of course, nation transformers... one of the more heart pounding, mind blowing, and spirit shaking events ever. ever. and i thank God it's annual. always something to look forward to :) it showcased a great many things that has happened over the year, the lessons it taught the people there and how many people were transformed by God. the coolest part was when a domino chain of people shared how each and every one of them affected each other and changed their lives forever...astounding if you ask me :) i really cried that time... so much my heart really broke (soree mariel, but there's next time, hope you can be there!).

another fun and crazy year filled with unbelievable stuff: like going to tagaytay weekly, starbucks everywhere, a series of buffets, more new food adventures, late at night or early morn get togethers, on the spot spoofs, onstage performances, lovely weddings, all with the help and company of my long time Ateneo barkada: kit, tj, russ and jess. on the other hand, loads of make-up-for-lost-time with my HS friends: anto, myk, linel and hermie.

i am now gearing towards doing full-time in Church :) c'mon!

met a friend at Sonya's Garden: lyka who after an awesome frienship for a month, suddenly went cold. i pray for you always :)

and the ever so wonderful and unexpected bondings with my brother neil. and the more amazing joining of Neil into Church! woohoo!!! You truly are a GREAT God! :) i will never forget this!

actually i would've wanted to put more into detail but most of them are bad stuff at work so that's not a nice post :) i've put it in the past! :)

and to start this great year...

a great celebration with my family with our annual New Year reunion at Lola Rosa's with an unexpected flood of success and a humongous costume contest participation of: 30 people!!! biggest in our clan's history! woohoo!!! more years to come!

a celebration with the carolers at Church as a sign of gratitude to those who really deserve it :) congrats guys! (angelo, joyann, paolo, ate maila, adu and two-time winnner jeng!)

and another surprise bonding with me, my brother and jasmine at Starbucks, Marquinton. the discussions of that night made us realize how far we've gone from before, the changes we've undergone, the discoveries we have of each other, how we view our MFBC family and other great things. we also talked about our plans for this year. and my brother did his task from kuya bong as he starts his one2one...c'mon!!! and of course our love lives hahaha.

anyways, i look forward to an even greater year and to top it, i am starting it with FASTING! :)

Godbless and love you all! :)

umpteen years

2011-12-30T07:00:00.000+08:00

well?

what else am i gonna write about?
hahaha
there's just TOO MANY to write since last time
and i've ALMOST forgotten about this blog LOL

anyways
since it's gonna shift over to a new year...
all i'm gonna say is that i am thankful (as always) for this year
but ESPECIALLY for this year...
because i've finally FINALLY gotten back into a lot of significant things
i am now into the real path of happiness
met new and beautiful people
and rebuilding my erratic relationship with Christ :)

ta-tah!

tc and 2GBTG! :)

bday

2011-08-18T23:34:00.002+08:00

so far... really
honestly
no joke

this has been the best bday ever :)

thanks for my ever so faithful Christian friends :)

love you all!

anonymity

2011-08-15T03:34:00.000+08:00

sometimes i wished that people just didn't know me or i didn't know people

it just f!ckn hurts...

and it's so f!ckn sad...

sigh

rusty rusty

2011-07-19T00:43:00.001+08:00

wow i never thought i'd forget about blogging my life here hahaha

quick:
i don't wanna work anymore but i wanna start a biz
i wanna finish upgrading my PC soon
i wanna go photography to next level
be consistent with food blogging
setup a gotohan/silogan whatever biz
do a lot of other things haha
i still like her :( (hope there's still a chance)
blah blah blah

:)

2011-06-15T00:53:00.001+08:00

i think...
well what do you think?
:)
:)
:)
:)

obviously

2011-06-10T02:31:00.000+08:00

obviously
im a very emotional
irritating
OC
crazy
stubborn
irritating
persistent
adventurous
extremist
optimist
pessimist
and i fall for just about any girl...

but that doesn't mean i'm not sincere
nor am i a player
i just have to move on fast on stuff
because life is short
can't afford to lose too much of it

God thank you for this life
for i enjoy every crazy bit of it :)

angeline

2011-06-05T15:45:00.000+08:00

sometimes i really think
God is trying to tell me to stop trying
because He wants me single for the rest of my life

why?

is it really that bad that i can't have my own partner?

pati ba si gelly? :(

can You help me? tell me what You want from me...

when my faith fell..

2011-05-22T19:08:00.000+08:00

well she dropped the bomb already...
she said she's uncomfortable with me and i'm just a big brother to her...
she said she did what i thought she did because she doesn't want anybody to think that there's something between us...

she and xha doesn't even want to do small group anymore...

i can't help my sadness gush out my eyes...

it's always like this
i'm emotional
irritating
uncomfortable
irrational

now i've lost a whole new family... a new Church
i lost friends again
i lost time again
i lost love again
heck i lost my first shot at a small group

now it's all back to where i was...again

with nothing but dust...

i don't really know what He plans for me anymore really...

i just pray that finally i get some answers now...because i'm hanging by a thread... :(

faith

2011-05-19T04:36:00.001+08:00

i think i've fallen for my faith :P

whatever that means :)

i am a man of God

2011-05-12T23:16:00.000+08:00

well it's been 1 month and 2wks since i've had a job
ever been so busy i am still

why?

i've been doing ministries here and there
with people i love and hate
with friends and strangers

and i've never been more happily busy EVER...

to God be the Glory :)

there is no easy job...

2011-05-03T01:39:00.001+08:00

but a job done in His name is NOT A JOB AT ALL! :)

it's a privilege and such a FUN THING TO DO! :)

it's been a month that I've been jobless but I've also been very active in the Church! super!
i've touched lives and changed lives and helped the youth, really, the energy is very addictive! :)

To God be the Glory!

too much

2011-04-01T00:10:00.002+08:00

i hope this never happens again as i was trusted by my own teammate and friend about what her feelings are about the company and then someone else gave away that secret...

this job is really really taking its toll on me :(

this has to be a good day

2011-03-30T18:05:00.002+08:00

unbelievabilistically unbelievable

2011-03-28T23:38:00.000+08:00

so there...
1st week on my new job i get a supervisor trainee position geared for QA supervisor
2nd week i become acting project manager
3rd week i officially become project manager
crazy?
now i meet a bunch of amazing women whom i've not met before or i know but didn't really notice before!
a former officemate
a small group-mate
a food place owner
a former office onshore counterpart
crazy huh?
and i've been having the best time of my life with my friends!
great small group
great teammates
great photos
great adventures
great family time
great God-time

WOW craziest ever!!!
to God be the Glory!!!

after helluva day

2011-03-25T10:56:00.001+08:00

well...
we gotta recover from this
i gotta recover from this

i'll do what it takes to make this team the best
no matter what

:)

helluva day

2011-03-24T22:47:00.002+08:00

it's been helluva day
i wanna die actually
i failed AGAIN and during go live in production
sheesh
i failed myself
my team
my boss
and everyone else... :-(

suicide

2011-03-05T10:10:00.000+08:00

i dunno what's up with you joydie
why do you love your work so much
that you'd DIE for it?!?!

wakeup! when all your loved ones and your life is gone, you won't have enough time to even cry for it

sheeessshhhh

oh whatta day

2011-03-04T19:23:00.001+08:00

damn soooo busy
being a PM ain't no joke
damn crazy job i tell yah
and the same reason why i didn't like the IT and corp world is bec of it's sheer damn admin and pressure...

to foodblog or not?

2011-03-02T17:45:00.000+08:00

as you've noticed... i've not been life blogging
i've been working and going places and foodblogging more
hahaha
honestly, i can update both
but it really just slips my head hahaha

so far being a PM trainee's ok
but like my boss said
it's only been a week so too early to say

anyways i'm happy my latest project's been published! :)
kewl!

off to small group!

unbelievably unbelievable

2011-02-25T07:40:00.001+08:00

so i leave my former company
join a new one as a contractual QA supervisor trainee
then a week and 4 days after, i get promoted to PM!!!

wth...

aw my freakin brain hurts!
:-(

PS: main reason is because the previous PM is leaving and i was the chosen candidate for some f!d up reason

Happy Day :)

2011-02-24T01:39:00.000+08:00

finally
an authentically happy day :)

i was on half-day because of LBM and yes, I almost lost my job because of attendance
but you know what... my supervisor, my boss, and the big boss all said that since they like my work
they're still keeping me
thank you Lord :)

anyways, my boss (who is also my bestfriend btw)
still has the same prob as before: he thinks he's not fit to be the boss
crazy? yeah it is
he's been like this for the longest time
although I've given him advise
i don't know if he's actually done any of it haha

anyways i told him that he probably is more of the warrior than the king
he said yeah probably
so i told him to tell his boss about it
but honestly, i think the boss isn't giving up on him for 2 things:
1) there's no other better candidate
2) he still believes that my boss just needs more time and training

well i just think my bestfriend's not ready yet since he got into that position
because all the other pioneers of the company have...resigned :(

anyways, i told him that the only person who can help him
is himself and his boss

then after spending time with him
i went to my weekly small group
this time in a place near my new office :)

and boy was it sooo fun!
it was kinda weird at first but i really had a great time in the end
after the stranger barrier had dissolved midway
a new group of people
a new group of friends
a new group of Christians :)
happy day!

onelife2live! :)

OC-ness...finally in Professional Use :)

2011-02-23T01:52:00.000+08:00

although i was late for the 2nd day in a row
my day wasn't that bad...
why?
i felt very productive finding at least 6-10 bugs in our software

not that it meant that the software was good
but it meant we were able to prevent it from doing harm to the users :)

also i had another rare bonding time with my brother
who wanted to see his first gf badly...
guy still loves her despite the relationships in between...pity

so we both went to eastwood where her work is
but before visiting her
we ate at one of my favorite places in eastwood: food junction
and yes that's what i first blogged in my food blog: Eat Me!

i had a second round of the reviews for the shops that weren't open before
and was utterly disappointed...
Adobo Connection had a delicious gising-gising and a typical veggie kare-kare
Pink Kitchen had bleh food
Maru-Maru had so-so ramen and typical takoyaki
my memory card somehow got corrupted when I got home so...
i can't blog them :(

anyways, so we went to where she works...
it was obvious she didn't like to see my brother
but somehow, it was enough that my brother saw her again after a long time
we ate yogurt there (which I took pics of and wanted to make a review but sadly...)
and decided to go home after a moderate waiting time
before we headed home
we decided to eat some sausages at Hero sandwiches

at last, good food :)
anyways, that's it i guess...
soree I've not been blogging everyday again
not as if someone's reading this but hey, who knows? :)

ta-tah!

just at the office

2011-02-18T16:25:00.001+08:00

well, will you look at that...
after so long
i finally decided to post again

at the office even :P

excited? almost? wtf

2011-02-08T23:23:00.001+08:00

i don't know
i'm not half-hearted in resigning
i'm half-hearted with how i'm gonna do it

anyways... wish me luck :)

and im so f!ing excited buying that new camera
sheesshh...

miss you sam... i so damn miss you...

shet

2011-02-07T22:06:00.002+08:00

well i hope i don't lose my job
before i resign on feb 10

see my stupid brain dictionary told me
good riddance = goobye and goodluck
shit

i posted that to a customer... and... of course i got bashed
and i kept defending myself
not knowing they're bashing me for the right reasons!
oh dear... i'm so f!cked up now...

UPDATE:
after apologizing...
the thread actually turned into a good one :)
and the OP even changed his post into something less
insulting to the company
nice!

somewhere over the rainbow

2011-02-04T01:00:00.000+08:00

saw her accidentally at the coffee shop
i was happy but mostly sad
i cried the moment i got out the door
stupid...
still crying...
stupid...
anyways
i'm already starting to miss my team
i know i'm leaving soon and i ain't telling them
i have to... there's no other way...

death part 1

2011-01-31T00:31:00.000+08:00

i guess i don't need to talk to her anymore
it's written all over her FB
her actions
her words
her silence
it's so sad
i tried so hard
she accepted them
then she'd suddenly change
never telling me anything
i was hoping just out of respect
not through "action speaks louder than words"

but it's over...

from one catastrophe to another
this is my life
because this is my death...

on a positive note
i went bonding with my good Church friends
one of them i was sad for because she still chose to spend time with her boss
when she needed rest more
she was "professionally" black mailed
but it's over, no use fretting over it
like the one above

but it wasn't really enough
to get me through the day
had a badminton game though
after a long time
and some jogging

i dunno
i'm distraught
i'm... dead...
cheers...

well? time to upsize

2011-01-27T23:41:00.001+08:00

not really a good day
i was late due to our yesternight's drinking session
which was fun and weird by the way
because of jim's confession... ahm... nevermind haha

she really had to do it again... sigh... when will she change? :(

low productivity, damn work overload and that stupid graph haha

anyways i'm nervous for a manager interview tomorrow
i dunno if i really want in or not
but what the heck...

wish me luck!

bombs and grenades

2011-01-25T23:41:00.001+08:00

a bomb went off a bus somewhere in buendia
4 people got killed
2 of them were my brother's officemates
thank you Lord for keeping my brother safe

i finally sent my CV to my bestfriend's company
it's a managerial position
i damn hope i can pass
really...

still miss you sam.. badly
sigh i dunno what i did but to this day
i feel so bad coz i don't see or talk to you anymore...

lazzzzyy

2011-01-23T23:23:00.001+08:00

actually i didn't wanna post coz i feel lazy to...
anyways was so excited to play guitar
but my guitar still has a problem... sheesh...
and joydean was sick :( workaholics... haha
anyways... that's that...

still missin you...

so so

2011-01-22T23:38:00.000+08:00

it's a so-so day
not too eventful
got a new string for my guitar
goin from 0-5 to 1-6
my 0 always gets broken so i'm switching

went to bucks met with jenn
my buds still at la luz havin fun (wish i was there)
still missin her a lot... she's... not replying at all
i guess...
anyways
i'll sleep early and wake up early
i hope...
ta-tah!

small group

2011-01-22T02:49:00.001+08:00

i missed small group
and it felt great meeting up with them again
at shakey's
had lots of new stories and learnings from the Book of Life :)
filling food (oh my diet)
anyways... heavy rains was fine
as people elsewhere needed it
and as usual ended with SB
of course she wasn't there :(
still hoping though...

i... feel... sad...

2011-01-21T02:17:00.002+08:00

well it would've been just a fine ordinary day
like my previous posts...
but... i don't know...
i walked again to eastwood and met my friend again
so i can accompany her home
met chicoy again and pai hahaha
it was all fun
but when i texted her
she replied a few words
and when i asked if she's mad (coz that how she sounded)
she just said "im about to sleep"
well... i guess... that's it
after everything it ends up like that... rudely bad
it would've been better if she had just told me from the start the truth
and not have accepted any of my gifts
sigh
anyways... guess i'm just bitter...
signing off...

to walk again

2011-01-20T02:11:00.000+08:00

feel sssoooo good to briskwalk again
it's been quite some time
i walked from robinson's to eastwood
feels really good :)
i wish i could find time to walk from office to home again like last time

was able to meet-up with chicoy, junie, pai (my long-time crush) and mommy pam
really had fun chatting with them
too bad joyce still had calls

then met up with joydean at stackers
had fun with that too :)
whatta great day!

too foooooollll

2011-01-18T23:42:00.002+08:00

yeah... it's not misspelled...
i'm so full i feel like a fool
anyways
gotta stop this coz ill lose all the hard work i've done for the past 5 mos... sigh
wow! my non-late streak is good!
expensive though becoz of the f'ing cab hahaha

anyways
i really miss her
sooo miss her... wish she could say something..
oh well...

ABJFWWM

2011-01-18T02:42:00.000+08:00

after soooo long
i finally got to sip my fave drink AGAIN
whew! freakin planner craze really got me stuffed and saturated with all the coffee drinks
ALL OF THEM :P
anyways...
good vibes i guess
got to give my special gift to koi
was not late again for 2 wks almost haha
cheri's kinda ok with me
and good productivity again
though the day was mostly ruined by that stupid counterpart of ours
who was cute but was brainless sheeshh

a really good Sunday

2011-01-17T01:09:00.000+08:00

got a bit better productivity haha at work
went to dinner with my bestfriend and his sister
and went to dinner again with my churchmates :)
soooo much fun :)
i missed soooo much of my life :)

oh yeah... i actually started my day going to starbucks and giving her a letter
i hope she takes it well
and i get a response...
i hope...

friday smyday

2011-01-15T06:00:00.000+08:00

ok smyday isn't a real word
but what the heck! haha
bought vol1 of brightest day (good book)
watched the tourist
good film :) a bit better than expected
went to starbucks
of course she wasn't there

the conversation me and tyr had that morning was
well, i was sad of course
i just don't get her
sigh... is she just not ready or she just being kind?
i dunno
i guess i really have to ask her one way or another
i'm such a lame-ass
oh well
anyways
leave it at that

had another small roadtrip with my bestfriend
eastwood then ortigas
then helped someone who got lost
from bicol to binangonan

sigh i still wish that she'd...
anyways
nuff said

bonding bonding

2011-01-13T01:47:00.001+08:00

great day!
i had bonding with 2 church friends at starbucks
AND my brother! woo-hoo!
really cool!
got some new good movies to watch too :)

nice way to start the year!

almost boring

2011-01-10T02:45:00.000+08:00

i hate working on sundays
too much work and it's only me, by myself
just a few people to talk with
no time with family
oh well...

my day ended nicely at least
by meeting up with some friends
met at starbucks katip
was nice spending time for a load of laughter
and planning for a lot of trips :)

hope i could be there though haha
gud morning! :)

whatchathinking?

2011-01-08T22:13:00.002+08:00

i hope i knew whatchathinking
but i don't
well, another day has passed
gone to church for mass at katip
met with lor to get her starbucks stickers
and had a long heart-to-heart talk about "her"
and ""her"" too...
had some questions and now has some more
and ate at wok with me
and got some coffee
and still has questions

i dunno anymore
is it really this bad?
she's really just ashamed to tell me to stop
just because i've already done so much?
or does she really NOT like me at all?
or is she just NOT ready yet?

*sigh*
anyways
i hope i don't wake up late bwahaha
and i'm off to hidalgo for some DSLR price canvassing

PS: hope i can FINALLY blog regularly now that i've got my own DSL connection :)

The Great Starbucks Roadtrip

2011-01-08T15:24:00.001+08:00

there's this girl i like

she's a barista at Starbucks

and on her birthday i decided to come up

with a very unique gift

a birthday card

well, actually, most often than not

the birthday cards i make are unique

and all handmade :)

but this time around

i needed a lot of help

what i thought of was to make a simple card

with a changing happy birthday message

then fill it up with

a birthday message from 21 different

starbucks branches all over the metro

and beyond

well, i was successful :)

in fact was so successful that i got more than 21 (got 22 because i counted wrong haha)

and not just messages

they suddenly got creative and put designs

on their own messages!

really cool!

anyways here's the complete list:

bluewave mcapgal
glor4, lvl1
glor4, lvl4
anson's, adb ave
ghills, promenade
chinabank, villar
podium
gb5
philcom
pearlbank, mkti
megastrip
ewood citywalk2
ewood dell
boni histreet
roxas blvd
6750
gb1
world centre
valero
summit ridge, tagaytay
paseo de sta. rosa
bluewave marquinton

whew!
and i just gave the card yesternight
she liked it... i guess... but well... not too much i guess
i was kinda sad and i already felt
there's was something wrong
someone was going to pick her up
she said it was her dad
but i knew it wasn't her dad
she always walks home
and well fb does say a lot
i guess what sucks is
i've been doing stuff for her
but if she wants me to stop or there's no chance in the first place
why is she still letting me? :(

oh well...

1-11-11

2011-01-01T03:08:00.002+08:00

start of a new life :)
and hoping not only for me
but for ever body as well...
cheers!

2010-12-19T14:32:00.000+08:00

to a new look :-)
a new life!

cheers!

there is life after death after afterlife

2010-08-24T17:29:00.001+08:00

oh well
so much for being a blog hahaha
i couldn't even so much post much about what's happening to me lately

but that's okay
in time
:)

thank God

me'n'her

2010-06-29T21:59:00.002+08:00

this is supposed to be a very long story but...i'll try to keep it short. I'LL TRY.
i am inlove, truly inlove, with a woman. a woman who has flaws but has beauty. a woman who has downs but knows how to up herself. a woman who bears a child which i will love for the rest of my life. yet, the cruelty of life pulls us apart so hard that it tears our lives indescribably. her family against us, a man who claims life doesn't want to let go, and all manners of unfairness are against me. but i'm not giving up. not losing hope. for my love goes beyond the borders of temporal love. there is always pain, unbearable most of the time, there are already a lot of lies until i have become one as well, i had to be hidden, lied, hurt... i became the 3rd party eventually. but i have endured and will still endure because there's still hope. i know there is. God knows that every single day I pray to Him for a miracle. for a clearance and fair judgment from her family. that they know that i am not the type who just goes for looks. that i am one who truly loves beyond any sacrifice. i can be the best husband and father there is for both her and the child... i love her beyond everything...

just passing by

2009-06-30T00:22:00.001+08:00

just passing by

nope i didn't pass away

huffi day!

2009-03-22T10:11:00.001+08:00

it's one of the happiest days of my life :)

thank you for such wonderful friends!!!

thank you Lord!

i resign

2009-02-27T03:58:00.000+08:00

well that's it..

i resign :P

2009-02-13T16:02:00.000+08:00

im in a fix right now

love life that is

hayz...

oh well

call of duty

2008-12-26T08:41:00.002+08:00

another sad day at christmas

coz im still at work

and for 5yrs straight i have never been with my family during christmas or even before and after it

and i still hate my job more so now because they're not giving me the position that i have rightfully earned for...
discrepancies on pays
unappreciative people
negative environment

sheesh

anyways

i still thank God for being born into this world and still giving me a job despite the economic recession

:)

aw c'mon

2008-10-29T16:29:00.001+08:00

oh well...

yep

that's about it :P

missing you

2008-05-25T00:39:00.002+08:00

after soooo longgg...
me and my strawberry met and went out :)

it's really hard when you're working on an entirely different world and time. you see, i'm already free from my previous prison work. and now I'm working again in a outsourcing center. the same for my first 2 job experiences. it's really fun and nice and all ... but good things have a price...

and one obvious price would be time. time for loved ones: family, old friends and of course, my special someone.

it's really hard but we still manage to pull through.

and that's why i'm really happy that she's the one. :)

thank God and thank you strawberry. :)

mwah!

caramba!

2008-03-08T12:01:00.002+08:00

well i'm working... again :P
anyways, i've been sick for almost a week... tired of colds and cough and fever... dunno how and why this happened though.
tough times lately...
work is STILL killing me althought i've long been dead... this group, this company... really sucks...
for happier stuff...
i just miss strawberry more each day. and it's a lot better when we meet the next time. it's just different. :)
aawwwww...
i miss her already :)
hmm...
i haven't been to any of sitti's gigs lately or to sittizen get togethers. as usual work. *sigh*
i haven't been out of town lately either.
haven't been out with old friends... am i losing my life? hehehe...
been hooked a lot with lotsa music lately like justin t., timbaland, omarion, ne-yo, colbie caillat, maroon 5, jack j, michael b. and a lot more...
and I PRAY HARD that i do get to meet Colbie this coming tues!!!
that gurl is just sweet, pretty and has a great voice... melts your heart really. :)
hmm... what else? nothin much i guess.
oh been hooked to sports more lately...
badminton, billiards and bowling... really fun you know :)
finishing some pending books like the watchmen and Annotated Chronicles...
hmm
will meet up with old friends later :)
see yah!

strawberry fields forever

2008-02-22T01:33:00.002+08:00

we've been through a lot in such a short time...
it's been hard on both sides...
sometimes it's even too much for us to handle
people keep seeing the wrong in something like nothing...

but i guess

i hafta say...

this makes me love her even more :)

love you strawberry :)

pochi

2008-02-07T23:04:00.000+08:00

heya! it's been like... what? 10,000 years since my last post

well what the heck... got no internet...

anyways i'll TRY to keep this short haha...

hmm... well things change and people change and so does the heart (metanoia)
why do i say?

coz just when i thought i found someone to love

it found me instead :)

hehe as they always say, God works in mysterious ways... so mysterious that most of the time, you just can't figure Him out. so all you gotta do is wait. wait. and wait.

so much for patience. :P

anyways...

there was this princess. she didn't live in a tower like rapunzel or slept like sleeping beauty or lost her glass slipper like cindy. but she was just a princess. a princess in her own lil and crowded world.

so i happened to be a beggar. for love that is. so we bumped into each other in our little worlds. if you ask me how... well... i dunno myself. haha. but im so glad we did. :)

so the beggar asked the princess for love.

what do you expect? of course she'd decline to give me alms.
and she declined 4 times.
but unfortunately for the princess, the beggar was a stubborn and persistent one. so when the princess was running away, the beggar tirelessly followed. and followed. and begged. and followed. and begged.

until he realized what was missing.
what was wrong.

it was because he was begging for something that shouldn't be begged for.

so he stopped. and sat down. and he sat down for days, weeks, and months. until he looked up to the heavens and did the most right-est thing he could ever do in a desparate time like this... he prayed.

and he waited. waited till forever. and all that God said was... wait longer.

and so with a heavy heart he waited. and waited patiently and faithfully.

then when all was lost and the beggar almost died of hunger, he saw a faint figure. a figure who was sort of returning from the light. he was almost blind but he kept his eyes open. he was still... hoping this last time.

and as if miracle struck like lightning, he knew it was her.
the princess he had sought for so long. but his heart was frail now and he was trembling with fear. coz he had been rejected many times. he was feeling a little disturbed as to why she would return. and so he just waited... coz that's what God told him to do.

tears...

tears suddenly fell from his eyes as his heart started to beat relentlessly. as if it had revived from an eternal slumber. it had felt something it had never felt before. it was there he thought. and it was time he gave this one a shot. so he stood up and before he knew it, the princess had already given her heart.

the beggar was speechless. but he knew that God had smiled on him this day and that his wait finally paid off.

it was good that he believed
it was good that he was patient
it was good that he waited

it was good that he let God take his load and gave him the hope that one day his prayers will be answered.... eventhough he was just a harmless beggar.

and so this was not a story of a frog prince or a royal prince or a thief of Baghdad...

this was a story of a beggar who never thought a princess charming would ever come to his simple and lowly life.

THE END. :P

for my princess... jen :)

and the day the writer has gone...

2007-10-15T17:56:00.000+08:00

can you look at that...

*sigh*

oh well SOOOOO much has happened in the past many months of my life...
i was hoping i could have just jotted them down here...

oh well...

that's it hahaha...

when i have time and my very own internet, i will get my revenge...

writing is one passion I can NEVER forget or live without...

:)

dine n jam

2007-09-24T03:13:00.000+08:00

well i was late
too bad...
after soooooo long...
i was finally out of my office for 2 straight weeks of no-sleep (well exaggerated... at least 32 hours sleep for the 2weeks actually)

so anyways...
i was late at dine n jam... but i was REALLY late that i wasnt even able to watch the show! *sigh*

but i was happy enuff to eat with the cada family with all the great food and all

oh what the heck

why am i awake you ask?

coz i fixed their PC till 3:22AM... caused by a virus :(

and thank GOd it worked hehe...

anyways... a lot happened in this day... it was nice and sad at the same time...

(there's this one gurl who just can't be honest enuff wid you... how sad... :( )

if it weren't for dine n jam... it wudnt have been a very sad day... :)

well hope i don't die of overwork later... or if that's still work

ciao!

my song for jen...

2007-08-12T05:13:00.000+08:00

You waved your hand and it was
done
Said let it be and there it
was
A mountain so high
It broke through the
sky
A canyon so deep
It’d bring a man to his
knees

Chorus
I’ve seen what you can
do
I’ve seen you make miracles
And hopeless dreams come
true
You made the heavens and the
stars
Everything – come on, how hard
could it be
To make her love
me

I said some things I shouldn’t
have
Tried everything to win her
back
I’m human, I messed
up
Is she gone, are we
done
Forgiveness, another
chance
That’s all I want, it’s in
your hands

To make her love me – yeah,
yeah, yeah
To make her love me – Ooo,
Ooo, Ooo

jen

2007-08-12T05:08:00.000+08:00

jen...

need i say more?

well...

God is just...great...

and the Bossa princess was right :)

i love you so much and you know that i'd give even my life for you...
even if you've only rejected me so and sent me crying... i'll always be there for you... always :)

the one that got left behind

2007-06-08T01:36:00.000+08:00

well well well

a post to keep my favorite site alive :)

yes although it's been months since my last post... this is still my favorite site... (well ONE of them ahaha)

only now did i realize...
that what i thought was hard and martyrdom before...
is NO MATCH...
for the sacrifices for LOVE that i am going through right now...
and this time
it's with God :)

really different but uber-ly challenging

and well... im happy and sad at the same time...

:)

i will make up for lost months...

i must...before i forget :)

oo (hinde mo lang alam) by: upDharmaDown

2007-03-24T15:28:00.000+08:00

this is my song for now: (if you're not familiar with the Filipino language, i can translate this for yah) :)

di mo lang alam, naiisip kita baka sakali lang, maisip mo ako di mo lang alam, hanggang sa gabi inaasam makita kang muli nagtapos ang lahat sa di inaasahang panahon at ngayon akoy iyong iniwang luhaang sugatan di-mapakinabangan sana nagtanong ka lang kung di mo lang alam sanay nagtanong ka lang kung di mo lang alam akoy iyong nasaktan baka sakali lang maisip mo namang hindi mo lang alam kay tagal nang panahon akoy nandirito pa rin hanggang ngayon, para sayo lumipas mga araw na ubod ng saya di pa rin nagbabago ang aking pagsinta kung akoy nagkasala, patawad na sana ang puso kong pagal ngayon lang nagmahal di mo lang alam akoy iyong nasaktan baka sakali lang maisip mo namang puro siya na lang, sanay ako naman di mo lang alam, ikay minamasdan sanay iyong mamalayang hindi mo lang pala alam di mo lang alam, kahit tayoy magkaibigan lang bumabalik lahat sa tuwing nagkukulitan baka sakali lang maisip mo namang akoy nandito lang, hindi mo lang alam matalino ka naman kung ikaw at ako ay tunay na bigo sa laro na ito ay dapat bang sumuko sanay di ka na lang pala aking nakilala kung alam ko lang akoy yong masasaktan ng ganito sanay nakinig na lang ako sa nanay ko di mo lang alam ako'y iyong nasaktan baka sakali lang maisip mo namang puro siya na lang, sanay ako naman di mo lang alam, ikay minamasdan sanay iyong mamalayang hindi mo lang pala alam malas mo . . . ikaw ang natipuhan ko di mo lang alam, akoy yong nasaktan..

the long lost life

2006-11-08T07:49:00.000+08:00

i just don't know anymore
where the Hell am i anyways?
sheesh...

like it was ten thousand years into the future that i forgot what i was doing and who these peeps are and at the same time, i was sent ten thousand years into the past that i'm seeing my old ghosts haunting me again...

yeah, all sounds confusing, i know...
i mean look at my last entry... it's been a decade for me... and i haven't logged in a big chunk of my life into this online journal...

hope i don't forget all those uppies and downies in my life... especially those significant moments...

i mean i tend to forget a lot so that's why i'm so freaking open in this journal of mine so that i remember each detail in vivid colors...

*sigh*

what a waste... i wish i was back to my "normal" reality...
but i know
that will never be possible now

whatta life...

oh well as usual, nobody reads my stuff anyways so what the heck... :P

hayyy...whatta night

2006-09-02T05:32:00.000+08:00

well...

simply put..

i had the chance to dance wid Sitti in front of an audience...

:P

wowow!

huffi day!

i'm in-looooovvveeee

2006-08-26T04:27:00.000+08:00

Hayyy……
Oh dear…
I dunno how long I’ll last standing straight with these experiences….
As some may not know yet…

YES I’m in-love…

and this ain’t no joke… for the moment I decided before, even with all the risks…
the chances….the misses….,

I knew that I’ll do anything just to get her sweet yes…. And impossible as it may seem… I still pray to dear God that He may finally grant me what I’ve been waiting and sacrificing for all these years of my life… Anyways…

Here’s the thing…
She had another gig at Eastwood…
Obviously I was there…
I immediately found Issa and Rachel there by the stage. We tried our best-est to find a table (in spite the jokes we got from the managers of the restaurants) but unfortunately, we found none.

Then came the biggest bunch of Sittizens I’ve been with at Eastwood:
Law, Dindz, Joaoseph, Kawal, Joy, Bryan, JP, Nell(who came in late), Boi, and Edge And yet again, it was a lot better to stand in front of stage and show all the love and support we could give the prettiest and most heavenly singer on Earth: Sitti…

Well…. Actually, eventually, I had to sit since I was very tired from work… And… As if bein with the biggest bunch of fun-loving Sittizens wasn’t enuff… Sitti came down the stairs with

THE MOST BEAUTIFUL DRESS SHE EVER WORE….

This is no exaggeration… I mean Sitti’s already the prettiest but THIS has got to be the MOST PRETTIEST EVAH!

Hayyy…
Anyways…

to make the long story short…

It was a short show…

She had to go to Tuguegarao immediately afterwards
( So I had to line-up fast for the cd signing line so she could get my flowers (again hahaha)…

And WOW…

I haven’t really walked near enuff yet there she goes again wid that heavenly knock-out smile…haayyy….

And ….

The unexpected again…

A kiss?!?! ….

Speechless ….

Then the other Sittizens came in so although I wanted to get a pic wid her, I gave way instead…

( I was still holding her flowers though Suddenly, like a hyper kid, she stood before the line was finished, looked at me and said thanks again and kissed me AGAIN!?!? WOW!!!! Whatta night! Definitely worth it! As always…

Hope you're fine wherever you are… Bossa Love always, ~PATcH~

The BEst-Est BdaY evAh!

2006-08-20T14:58:00.000+08:00

The huffiest bday evah!

Why?

Well…

Hahaha…

Anyways, obviously the reason is…

None other than…

Haller…

SITTI! :P

Hay…

T’was supposed tah b overtym day bt I made sure tht it won’t be…

So I finished what I had to do over all my breaks and my lunch…

And packed as fast as I could….

Bought flowers (again as usual hahaha)…

Went over there and voila!

(although me and law were seated, the view wasn’t necessarily nice)

They had a diff seating arrangement

We were at the side…

And so the concert finished with no encore since Sitti’s still not feeling well.. awww….

She actually sang seated and danced juz a lil…

Hay… the poor bossa princess… L

So I wasn’t really expecting I could meet her…

What was nice, I FINALLY had the courage to talk to some of the peeps I met over at the afterparty… (law, kawal, apple, Sharon, mygie) and a newbie bryan…

But patience is a virtue…

And love is patient

And a patient should always see his/her doctor…

Whatever…

And the wait was worth it…

(besides the fact we also had a group pic wid the band: lakshmi, erskine and steven)

Wow…

She was still stunningly beautiful (to think she’s not feeling well)

And that heavenly smile when she saw the flowers

…

Speechless…

But I said to myself…

NOT this time… hahaha

So I didn’t wanna miss tha chance…

I asked law to take a pic of us (since his cam is way better than my fne cam)

And AT LAST a pic wid the lovely princess…

Haayyy…

And so we talked…

And she read the card…

and she kissed me (oh my god, im gonna faint… hahaha)

wow..

I’m getting used to this…

Hahaha..

And so she had to go after a LOONNG chatty talk wid all of us

AND like I always told bryan, don’t be shy, supah kind and frndly is our princess…

So congrats to him that he mustered confidence to talk wid us…

And the princess… hahaha…

(oh yeah wid the sudden appearance of the audience who wanted pix too…)

Hahaha… I gezz we were too noisy.. sorry princess… :(

She kissed us all goodbye (hayyyy…) and waved the pageant wave…